A rambling kinda talk about life and all that comes with it, past, present & future, joined together with an eclectic selection of great music...
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I have been struggling with the permanence of self for a long time now. I am in my first serious relationship that has lasted for a year and a half now and when we started going out I felt a great weight (self-imposed, although it felt as though I had no choice) to change as a person. I have never really been destructively selfish by any means by when I started dating my girlfriend I felt that I had to change. I wanted to be her everything, the person who could answer her every beck and call. Alpha and omega. I wanted to assume the role of God. So for the past year and a half I have been experimenting with, thinking about, altering, and reverting back to, myself. I still listen (and urge everyone when it's appropriate) to Alan Watts and have drawn from Hinduism and Buddhism to finally address the question as to how much power of control you have over who you are and how you express yourself. I made myself too often miserable trying to meld with my own romanticized idea of what a partner should be but have recently been seeing the question in a new light. In conjunction with listening to Alan Watts I have taken a religion class this semester and it has provided some great food for thought. This is what I believe right now, and the fact that it is "right now" is important to note because as Raul Midon says, "time is illusion and yesterday can be so far away" so this is where my heart is at. God is singular, everything that is. Everything is an expression of a God who is playful and wants to breathe in the beauty of life from countless lungs. Societal expectations and norms distort this truth and make people question his and her own character which obscures their innate Godhood from them burring it further and further by various means such as media, consumerism, religion, and so on. So all that to say that change of self most closely is a type of dualism: if you want to become a vegetarian and then change your diet then that is a change that alters a part of who you are as a person but it does not change the core of your being, the thing that really makes you unique and distinguishable-the expression of god through the embodiment of "you" remains intact always and can never been altered in any way. Maybe a more capturing example would be clothing the naked body. the body exists unchanged regardless of the clothes draped on it, likewise the mind (or heart or soul or personality ad inifitum) can never be truly changed by any type of "clothes" placed upon it. This is my thought... Hope all is hell with you and great show. I listened to it a few hours ago but will fore sure listen to it again before your next show.
I think more people should talk about their recreational smoking habits, at least here in the U.S. Perhaps, then, we'd have an easier time of legalizing it. Hey, Obama, want to help this shit-ass economy? Legalize it. So, SD, keep talking about it. I think kind of like your theory about your pictures + what you say, it keeps the "wrong" kind of listener away. PS - speaking of pictures, I have a most interesting toilet shot to share with you, after our little "etiquetted" battle. Uploads forthcoming. xo.
ps- it was more than okay. it was lovely. thank you.
I love the length of the podcast. Always enjoy it. Descriptive, interesting and insightful... really brings me back to the seven years I spent in Toronto. And that's a good thing.
Great show. If you'll indulge me, I have a podcast recommendation for you:http://logorrhea.libsyn.com/He does a show called Ham Radio which in a lot of ways reminds me of your show. He talks a bit more about the music he plays but it seems you're both cut from the same cloth.Check out episode 178 in particular.He has another podcast called XO which is includes in the same RSS feed. It's more produced in the This American Life style. I happen to like Ham Radio better for its looser style.Regards,Eric (Tip Tap Tip)
Sorry. I meant to say check out episode 108.http://logorrhea.libsyn.com/Regards,Eric (Tip Tap Tip)
Thanks for the recommendation Eric. Downloaded a bunch last night and listening to Ham Radio 106 - fuck i forgot that i need a name for this shit now - yes, I can see the resemblance. All I need now is more time!
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